Selamat Ulang Tahun, Ibuk

Kemaren, atau 15 menit yang lalu. Di tanggal cantik itu, Ibuk ulang tahun ke 39. 11-12-13 lah katanya... buk, engkau seseorang yang paling tegar dan hebat di dunia ini. sinetron aja kalah...
Seandainya hidup ini dijadiin sinetron, haha.. semua pasti tau engkau bukan seseorang yang biasa. Buk, jika aku kamu, aku tak akan mampu berdiri tegak lagi. Buk, bukankah luka menjadikan setegar gunung? tapi kau lebih tegar dari apapun buk...
ketika seseorang yang seharusnya merawatmu dan mencintaimu malah mengacuhkanmu, kau permata. ketika seseorang yang kau cintai dan hanya kau miliki satu2nya, kau memaafkannya. jika itu aku, aku akan membunuhnya.
kau seseorang yang mengajarkan aku ketegaran dan keteguhan, jika bisa, aku pun sanggup untuk menukar nyawaku demi kebahagiaanmu. Kecantikanmu, kecerdasanmu, kebaikanmu, ketegaranmu, semuanya kau wariskan kepadaku. terimakasih karena telah merawatku dan menyayangiku lebih dari apapun,
ketika aku pulang, tak pernah kau biarkan aku susah sedikitpun. bahkan kau memilih untuk tidur denganku daripada dengan ayah yang sama2 pulang seminggu sekali. tak ada seorangpun yang boleh melukaiku, bahkan untuk urusan makan saja kau menyuapiku walau dengan memaksaku. Ketika aku harus minum ramuan jamu yang rumit ini, kau selalu sedia membuatkannya untukku dan aku sangat membencinya. padahal itu untuk kebaikanku. kau tetap sabar. Dahulu aku jahat sekali denganmu, aku menyesal seumur hidupku. Maafkan aku buk.. mulai sekarang aku tak akan membiarkanmu terluka sedikit saja.
Buk, aku mencari seorang yang menyayangiku sepertimu, yah.. minimal 30%nya saja dan aku belum menemukannya.
sekali lagi... ijinkan  aku menukar nyawaku demi kebahagiaanmu...
aku sangat menyayangimu ibuk.. lebih dari apapun......
Selamat ulang tahun ibuk, Budi Harwanti, kau lah sang malaikat tanpa sayap....

Kesibukan Saya

Menjadi seseorang yang sangat sibuk itu menyenangkan, dan kurasa aku perlu berbagi.
Sekarang, detik ini saya merangkap menjadi:
1. Mahasiswa Semester 5 jurusan Bahasa Inggris Unnes
2. Komting mata kuliah Advance Listening
3. Sekretaris Umum Dewan Perwakilan Mahasiswa tingkat Universitas
4. Google Student Ambassador Indonesia
5. Koordinator Humas dan Publikasi Drama Bahasa Inggris
6. Koordinator Music Director Drama rombel 2
7. Pemeran Ibu Ogre di Drama rombel 2 yang terlibat dalam 2 scene
8. Student Staff bidang kerjasama internasional PR4 Unnes
9. Tentor Bahasa Inggris Della, anak pemilik bimbel, kelas 4 SD\
10. Kekasih dari Pr***** s*k**

Hell Yeahhhh
Jangan tanyakan bagaimana saya bisa merasa begitu hidup.

It was raining, Darl.

You said you used to be lonely, me too. We were friends, we know well. But, I think I should believe the word "no brother in male-female relation, it must be something here" what a fool truth. I prevented that possibility with just said "I agree to go somewhere with you, but don't try to fall in love with me. I swear." It had no longer impact baby. You did it good.
It was raining. I was aware what would you do. I still did not know what would I say. I stared at your eyes, I saw me. Yeah... Did I make you disappointed? I ever can not make you hurted with my persistence. But, I can not lie myself, It was not like before. Am I fall for you? Complicating,
Darl, I am sorry to say that I am not loving you yet, I just said it by heart. It was different. I am happy beside you all along. You are my comfort place when I got my shit-trouble.
We did anything I never had done with a guy. Haha You are my best partner I guessed. I was thinking and deciding to has it flow. I wanted to be with you, at least, beside you. Sadly, I can not feel the love that I used to be involved in. I think I loved you, but next time it was wrong. It was happened all the time. Hug me, Darl.
I clearly remember, the beautiful night we had through.
You said in a light raining, next to me, in my favorite place, just two in that place, on the mid night, quivering, "We have known each other for along time" -> just some months sweetheart
"The first time I saw you, you were the cutest girl in that room" -> oh really?
"But now, you are the most beautiful girl in the world" -> I like ur style Darling
just that sentence, I did want to hug you. But I couldn't.
I let you told whatever you wanna told. I tried to make you relaxed. Haha If you saw your expression that time Darl, you could hit urself. You were cute. Hoho
I was confused, Dear. I said by heart, when It rained hard I will be next to you and when the rain just stopped, I can not accept that request.
What was going on? It was still raining and getting hard. Nevertheless, I wanna stay there with you all night, looked at you and the fountain. I wanted it happened forever. I was sorry for the flower, I chosed you Baby, not a flower -_-
Just gives me a bouquet! then I will receive it :| Hell yeahhhh
I asked to you if you love me or not. You did not say anything except "Should I say it?" then you hug me. You hug me in raining. in the midnight in my favorite place. I freezed. I did not feel anything or I can't.
It was very weird, long time I did not get a special day. Thank you my Dear, Sakti.